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Lord Miles Naismith Vorkosigan ([personal profile] dendarii) wrote2017-03-02 06:56 pm
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HOO BOY

[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-03 02:11 am (UTC)(link)
This Miles would very much like to know what he did to deserve this. What was the last thing he remembers before this? Ah, yes. Lying in his bunk with Bel in the late hours, off duty, perfectly comfortable in his fatigues. And now he's here -- where, exactly? Except his gut is telling him he ought to know -- cold, freezing, just cold -- when was the last time he was this cold? The morgue on the Moira during the freeze snaps to mind, at least as bad as any cold night he'd spent at Laskowski Base. The suddenness of the chill, of the jump -- why does he feel suddenly jump-lagged? -- it hits Miles like a blow to the back, the wind gone right out of him. For a moment his brain can only repeat a mantra of oh God.

He's already got his arms wrapped tight around himself when the other Miles sees him, curled in on himself, shivering violently, because Dendarii fatigues weren't exactly made for temperatures well below freezing. He's almost too overwhelmed to think God, I hate the cold to himself, but anything beyond that is lost to the wind and good God he's staring himself in the face, and not for the first time. Augh. Miles is so thrown by the sudden change in environment and shock at seeing himself that he only looks overwhelmingly disoriented.

"W-w-what," he chatters, fiercely, "th-the f-f-fuck?"
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-03 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
The cold has shocked Miles into noncomprehension enough that he just wraps the coat around himself and stumbles half-blindly after his older self, still shaking, and it's still cold in the tent, but it's warmer and perfectly tolerable. He looks around, realizes just what tent they're in and where, and it finally sinks in. He's still shivering, color still returning to his lips, but the look he directs at his other side is utterly and hopelessly exasperated. No. Ugh, no.

"Again?"
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-03 11:48 am (UTC)(link)
"Everyone always blames me," Miles mutters in a half sigh. He draws the coat tighter around himself, glad for the oversized clothing for once. Still shivering, less shocked, but no less harrowed. He wonders what kind of karmic injustice he committed to be dragged out of a warm bed with Bel. He's still disoriented -- hell, he's pretty sure he was almost asleep a minute ago -- and so his brain latches onto the first, most obvious thing.

"W-why is it so damned cold?" he asks stupidly. He definitely does not remember it being this cold.
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-03 12:33 pm (UTC)(link)
No, no way of getting away from it at all, and the thought makes Miles want to claw up the proverbial walls. At least at Laskowski Base there had been an actual indoors, a relief. But this? This is hell. It reminds him of that awful month on the Moira without heat, cuddling up in a pile with Ivan and Gregor -- and Bel, on occasion. Miles considers this for a moment. No, he doesn't like himself enough to resort to the cuddling option just yet.

"I don't remember it being this cold," Miles mutters sourly. But something in his other self's tone catches on his attention.

"Wait," he says slowly, eyes narrowed. "How...long have you been here?"
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-08 04:10 am (UTC)(link)
Ah. Miles tries not to let a trace of guilt creep into his expression. Two months of winter hell in the mountains is far worse than what he's been going through. He settles down next to his older self and rubs his arms with his hands, trying to let his body adjust to the cold. God, this is giving him flashbacks.

"Good God," is all he can think to say at first, and then, quite plaintively, "And it's still this cold?"
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-08 12:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Miles gladly takes the proffered blanket, drawing it tightly around himself. He glances over at the question. Well, better line of conversation than where he's spent the last two months or...however. It hasn't been that long for him.

Still not a fun topic, though.

"Ah...right." He rubs at his forehead with a blanketed hand. At least his teeth have stopped chattering. "We spent a month on the Moira without proper heat. The ship got hit with some kind of electrical damage that screwed with the life support systems. It was about this cold." He shrugs a shoulder at the miserable world around them. Sure, sure, the other Miles has been dealing with it for two months, but whatever.

"It was bad. I had to cuddle up with Gregor and Ivan for warmth." He grimaces. Well, at least the cuddling with Bel hadn't been so bad. Or it wouldn't have been, if he wasn't still panicking about it at the time. "It was even worse in the morgue."
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-09 12:01 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yeah, you spend six hours with Ivan snoring directly into your ear and see how you feel after that."

Miles flashes him a grim smile. "What do you think I was doing in the morgue?" A beat. "I wasn't being a corpse."

Just in case that needed clarifying. Since he did, you know, tell his older self about how he'd died. He rubs his forehead with the heel of his hand. "I was investigating. They had the morgue completely locked off, with Captain Cúrre's -- the medbay captain -- authorization only. I asked Thán about it, but he was irritatingly cagey about it as usual, so I decided to have a look for myself."

Translation: somebody told Miles he wasn't allowed to do something so he went and did it anyway. Business as usual.

"You know, if he wasn't so damned self-effacing, I'd mistake Thán for a haut. I've never known anyone else to be so frigging cryptic. I think he was allergic to being straightforward."
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-09 11:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Honestly, the consequences for getting into trouble on the Moira were so mild, it barely even counted. Handy, sure, but almost disappointing in a way. Then again, Thán's trust and faith in Miles had gotten...truly unnerving.

He frowns in thought, his expression turning inward. "Sort of. We found a body. I mean -- one we weren't expecting, anyway. Captain Típota's." He presses his lips together, looking not entirely pleased. "She was always very...elusive. We hardly ever saw her. But her body looked like it had had some kind of electrical damage. I thought it must've been connected to what happened to the ship, but...God, it was impossible to get answers out of Thán. I wanted to know why she hadn't resurged like the rest of us, why she was in the morgue and why was it locked..."

Miles makes a frustrated little noise and a wringing gesture with his hands, a pantomime, perhaps, of how much he'd like to wring Thán's neck every time he dodged around answers. "I never did get a satisfactory answer out of that one. One of many mysteries on that frigging ship. If I hadn't fallen into the Ingress when I did..." He lets out a harsh sigh. Is he actually missing the Moira? He shouldn't, but then -- it was his home for a year, and there were so many people he left behind. Or who left him behind. He waves a hand. "Every answer I ever got just raised more questions, or wasn't much of an answer at all. And after three days in that morgue, I was pissed about it."
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-10 05:48 am (UTC)(link)
Miles chews absently on the side of his thumb. "I sure as hell tried. I managed to get in another few places. Never felt like I was getting far. Got some weird experiences and a whole host of new questions, but no answers. And then it was like there was another goddamned emergency every month, and Personnel Officer wasn't exactly a slow job, and then there was the bar, and..."

And then there was his utter breakdown and dissociation, after which he'd endured a frankly ridiculous two-week quarantine by Ivan and Gregor. Miles shakes his head.

"Not too long ago, a new captain showed up. The original captain, apparently. And Thán and the rest just neatly stepped aside. Which -- to be fair, they were all terrible at it. But it was a terrible I was comfortable with." He vents out a sigh and rubs his cheek. "The only real answer I ever got was about Thán's connection to the Ingress. And trying to investigate the Ingress is how I...fell out in the first place."
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-14 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
"Yeah, that's the one," Miles says absently, momentarily distracted by the futile attempt at warming his hands by rubbing them together. Friction his ass. He frowns. "Didn't I tell you about it last time? The whole giant broken portal in the middle of the ship?"
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-14 12:50 am (UTC)(link)
Miles lets out a choked snort at it sounds like science fiction, because after spending a year on a ship with broken wormhole portals and aliens and talking skeletons, science fiction has become startlingly relative.

"Until now?" He raises an eyebrow, but then shrugs and nods, shivering a little. "Well, yeah. They're kind of impossible to miss. Big, glowy, maybe three or four meters tall. But the one on the ship was broken." And...he hadn't exactly come from the Moira this time, either, a fact which he is neatly stepping around for now.
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-14 03:07 am (UTC)(link)
Miles doesn't flinch at that sharp gaze -- at least he's spent enough time around Mark to get used to seeing his own face -- but he does blink.

"Yes, it glowed. It was broken, but functioning. Aren't you starting to feel a little déjà vu?" He rubs his forehead and sighs. "The Cetagandans don't have an Ingress. The only place I've actually seen them was in -- that universe, on the Moira and all the worlds we visited. Besides, even if the Cetagandans did manage to get their hands on one -- how, I don't know -- I don't think they'd actually be able to get it working."
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-14 03:39 am (UTC)(link)
Miles's mouth opens a moment, then closes. The worst part about talking to himself, he thinks, is that he can see the beginnings of a subtle manipulation -- he'd like to think of it more as a psychological nudge, but right now he's on the other side of that fence, and it's not a good look. That and the cold still has him in a bitter mood.

"The hell it is," he says, scowling, just short of snapping. "I'm not going into that base, and I'm telling you, the Cetagandans don't have one, or else that's where we'd all be coming out from." He closes his teeth on a breath. "Besides, even if they did have a broken Ingress, it'd be useless anyway."
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-14 03:52 am (UTC)(link)
"Are you listening to me?" Miles demands, looking irritated, but he's too frigging cold to move. "I don't there's an Ingress anywhere on this planet. If you're going through a door, even a one-way door, you have to -- wait, Byerly?" This time when he blinks it's in legitimate bafflement. "Is he...spying on the Cetagandans?"

God help them all.
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-27 01:03 pm (UTC)(link)
He's going to get about the reaction expected from Miles -- an incredulous stare with a running undertone of are you frigging stupid? Byerly Vorrutyer, a spy on the Cetagandans. God, you might as well have just sent Ivan into an astrophysics lab.

"Byerly Vorrutyer," he repeats. "You sent Byerly Vorrutyer into Cetagandan territory to spy on them? What is wrong with you?" His brow furrows, and he manages to stare somehow a little harder. "And Grandfather approved this?"
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-03-30 04:01 am (UTC)(link)
"ImpSec?" Miles just about squawks, looking incredulously at his older self. God, nothing about his future sounds good. He has to change that -- if he ever gets back to it. He shivers again, missing the warmth of Bel's body. "Byerly is ImpSec? Since when?"
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-04-01 04:34 am (UTC)(link)
Miles looks almost comically disgusted at the idea. The idea that Byerly's been a spy all this time and Miles hadn't even noticed is practically offensive. He looks at his older self, lips thinning.

"Are you sure Grandfather didn't just send him over there to get rid of him?"

Seriously, this sounds like total horseshit.
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-04-01 11:53 am (UTC)(link)
"I'm not arguing with that," Miles mutters, rubbing his arm. "I just find the idea offensive. Byerly Vorrutyer. God."

He shakes his head, getting back to the topic at hand. He really doubts there's an Ingress on the Cetagandan base, but there's something pulling them here. He'd very much like to be pulled back, thanks. "Has he found anything interesting?"
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[personal profile] forwardmomentum 2017-04-01 12:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Miles looks truly startled, and then just plain baffled. "The sent the Handmaiden off planet? And -- what the does the Star Crèche want with a -- whatever it is?"