[ She's quiet a moment. She just leans into his chest, just...feeling his arms around her. Feeling a little of her tension and misery ease as he holds onto her. ]
Yeah.
[ Then, with a bit more strength: ]
Yeah. Well. I'm not exactly going to be in any shape to throw myself into danger any longer.
[ She slips away and takes a few steps back. Then she releases her grip on her power. Lets herself turn into her real form.
She's a strange creature now, to be sure. Her hair is gray and brittle - nothing like the silky dark fall she had before. Her face and hands are wrinkled and mottled, lined with age. But she doesn't look like an old woman - not exactly. Her eyes are bright as a bird's, and her lips are still full, like a young woman's. Still...There's also a clear frailty to her. From the way she kneels on the floor. From the curve of her back.
[ Boy does he recognize that frailty. Not the same cause, oh no, but a similar effect, having bones too frail to stand up to much ... and too, what must be the underlying mental state involved. She said it had only been a day, right? Then this couldn't possibly be a situation where she'd aged naturally somehow, or had the years to match her body ...
He takes it all in, concern flooding his features - but sympathy too, so much sympathy. He stoops just slightly to meet her, reaching for her hands. ]
[ She looks up at him and squeezes his hands. None too tightly. She doesn't have the strength for a really good grip. Her lips quirk up a little more, the expression melancholy. ]
I spent a few minutes in the Other Place. The world of spirits. To call for allies. This is what it did to me.
[ A beat. ]
It's all right. I'll grow into it. It'll just...take a few years, right?
[ As he suspected, then. He squeezes back, equally gently, though suddenly aware of the fact that his grip is stronger than hers. God ... He never really wanted that to happen. ]
Of course. I'll show you all the tricks I've come up with over the years - shortcuts to adapting, very useful. It'll all be second nature soon enough.
[ He'd already been thinking about it obliquely, so he doesn't take more than a moment to consider the right blend of teasing and serious for his tone. ]
[ But she lowers her eyes and smiles - the expression now quite thoroughly wistful. ]
The problem is that there are plenty of people not aware of that. [ A beat. ] And it's not as though I've got an inside that would make most people crumble and swoon.
[ He does have to take a moment to assess here. Would he normally want this with someone actually her age? Eh ... maybe not. But this is Kitty, dammit, who clearly ended up like this doing something wildly brave and amazing. He doesn't have to work hard to stir up real warmth. ]
Hardly. You're like something out of an old Barrayaran fairy tale. A young girl who travels to the spirit world to save everyone - and does, but returns changed. As I recall, her lover adored the starry silver color of her hair.
[ He reaches out lightly to touch it with one hand. ]
Not at all. Ask Gregor and he'll tell you the same one. My word as a Vor.
[ And Miles won't even cheat and tell him telepathically. He hesitates for a moment, then continues his gesture. Lightly threading his fingers through her hair. ]
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Yeah.
[ Then, with a bit more strength: ]
Yeah. Well. I'm not exactly going to be in any shape to throw myself into danger any longer.
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What do you mean?
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I...was changed. By what I had to do. I'm not like I was before.
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... Is that why you're a fox right now? And a bird previously?
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Yeah.
[ She's quiet a moment. But - if anyone will understand, sympathize, then...it'll be Miles. Right? ]
Set me down.
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[ He carefully does just that. ]
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[ She slips away and takes a few steps back. Then she releases her grip on her power. Lets herself turn into her real form.
She's a strange creature now, to be sure. Her hair is gray and brittle - nothing like the silky dark fall she had before. Her face and hands are wrinkled and mottled, lined with age. But she doesn't look like an old woman - not exactly. Her eyes are bright as a bird's, and her lips are still full, like a young woman's. Still...There's also a clear frailty to her. From the way she kneels on the floor. From the curve of her back.
Her smile is forced. Pained. ]
This is...what I turned into.
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He takes it all in, concern flooding his features - but sympathy too, so much sympathy. He stoops just slightly to meet her, reaching for her hands. ]
Kitty ...
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I spent a few minutes in the Other Place. The world of spirits. To call for allies. This is what it did to me.
[ A beat. ]
It's all right. I'll grow into it. It'll just...take a few years, right?
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Of course. I'll show you all the tricks I've come up with over the years - shortcuts to adapting, very useful. It'll all be second nature soon enough.
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I meant my wrinkles. I'll grow into them.
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Ah. Those I'm not so sure about. You'll never actually manage to be as dignified as you look.
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[ Another half laugh. ]
Oh, that's a death knell to my love life, isn't?
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[ She arches an eyebrow at him and - part wry, part bitter, part actually amused - shoots back at him that question that had caused so much drama. ]
Would you sleep with me?
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Of course.
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Do you really doubt me, Kitty Jones? Weren't you the one going on about how the inside was more important?
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[ But she lowers her eyes and smiles - the expression now quite thoroughly wistful. ]
The problem is that there are plenty of people not aware of that. [ A beat. ] And it's not as though I've got an inside that would make most people crumble and swoon.
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Hardly. You're like something out of an old Barrayaran fairy tale. A young girl who travels to the spirit world to save everyone - and does, but returns changed. As I recall, her lover adored the starry silver color of her hair.
[ He reaches out lightly to touch it with one hand. ]
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There's no fairy tale like that. You're making it up.
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[ And Miles won't even cheat and tell him telepathically. He hesitates for a moment, then continues his gesture. Lightly threading his fingers through her hair. ]
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[ She lifts her eyebrows - but she also leans her head in to his touch, just like she does as a cat. ]
And how about that version of the story where everything got so cocked up that her lover ended up having to die, as well?
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